I get searching the web, reading newsgroups and reading blogs. I get involved with looking at images on websites, and taking in their meaning. I see endless lists of artists, creatives from every nook and cranny on the planet. There is so much going on, so many talented people, and so many folks doing things....AND IT OVERWHELMS ME!
At first, it all is so exciting, new thoughts, new ideas, new techniques and plans. I feel that I have a network, and there IS a community. There are others who feel like me, do things like me! Then, it becomes so overwhelming, too many ideas, thoughts....I end up feeling so insignificant and unimportant. I am merely a drop in this large bucket. It must be important for me to feel unique. The internet makes everyone feel like they are only fingertips away...and in this experience you find out that you really are not so special. Or are you?
I have been trying to post amazing artists here, and tell about places where you can learn about collage. This is quite an exhausting task for me. I really do end up with a sensory overload problem.
To repair my wigged out senses, the only thing I can do is remove all the distraction and clutter for awhile...until I calm down. This is what is happening at the moment for me. I am in sensory overload, and I feel so very small. I have been taking some moments for myself to relate to all these new facts and ideas. I apologize for not posting a daily artist, or not commenting on things as regularly as I have in the past. I just need to rejuvenate a bit! I definitely am by no means ending my blog experience, but I am slowing down a little to reflect on these things. I don't think I can make great changes within myself, unless I take the time to understand the new information that I have taken in. I just need to sit back and take a deep breath.
"Breathe deep the gathering gloom,
Watch lights fade from every room.
Bedsitter people look back and lament,
Another day's useless energy spent.
Impassioned lovers wrestle as one,
Lonely man cries for love and has none.
New mother picks up and suckles her son,
Senior citizens wish they were young."