A personal message

I don't spend a lot of time posting about my personal life, I tried that on live journal for awhile and I ended up paranoid or watched. A little bit about the other me you don't know about... I work full time for a trade newspaper publisher as a graphic designer/webmaster. I also do systems admin work which involves training and installing of software and hardware for the company. It's a busy job, and it keeps me up to date with technology. It doesn't offer me oodles of spare time at home tho. I guard my private moments and try to use them for creativity, or times with the fam. I don't watch tv, don't do movies generally, and I try to be focused on my own causes. The blog really is a portion of my life that seems to not be pulling it's weight however. I feel sometimes the giving is so much greater than the receiving....I hate to put it that way, it seems so selfish. Is the blog for me? or for you? It should be for both.

I have spent more time than I care to add up working on various posts for this little blog. It's sometimes an added pressure in life to have to worry about the pieces of a one-way conversation. I like the blog format, the fact that you can post pictures and share info easily. But it feels so utterly lonely just posting away everyday into the aether. I try to put a variety of collage related things up here in an attempt to feed the hungry who may also be taking their time trolling the web looking for insight and ideas. But where's the conversation?

I have to admit that I am feeling a bit defeated at the whole blog game tho. I read several serious popular art blogs and end up for hours on the comments, it's the conversation that grabs me most. That's exactly the thing that feels missing on this here blog! I tend to be pretty isolationist about my habits anyhow, but I am trying to draw in some kind of feedback and it just isn't happening. My fault? I have no clue.

I see my little webstats show that over 100 people read this blog each day. I just don't feel it's making sense to continue to pour my time into something that people are not interested in. I receive emails from individuals telling me about themselves, wanting to be posted on the blog...and that's all cool. I have had a few private emails asking me to address a certain topic or issue, but other than that, there is little feedback here and it makes me wonder. This is an open post. I am looking for any commentary, or maybe just some kind of sign that really is worth my time! Like Pink Floyd has said... Hello? Is anybody out there?